Another Life

Had we met in another life
It might have been
In a cozy little tucked away cafe
In paris
We would have walked down the street
With neon lights
And you talking about your dreams
Picking up croissants and bagels
I would have realized
How I'm half in love with you
By the time we sat down
Near the Eiffel
We would have known
Our favourite songs
And laughed crazy
About that one bad fall
In my spring break
Taking a walk around the Louvre
You would have cried about
That one summer night
When you had to decide
Between your mom and dad
Knowing that life isn't easy and
People are hard
In the city
With a million beating hearts
Ours thumping loud
We would have known that how we're
Reeking of love
At the touch of our fingertips
Along the banks of the Siene
On the first day of the year's snow

Cali Sun

I remember us
Under the
Californian sky
Basking in the warmth
Soaking up the sun
You lying next to me
On a Sunday noon
Just before we went
Driving down the street
In your red Corvette
To take a ride
Up on the ferris wheel
While the sky
Is splashed with red
In the western horizon
The last summer days

You would sit
Near the window panes
Writing your songs
Playing the piano
And I couldn't help
But dive deep
Into those ocean blue eyes
Lyrical smile
Your hands on my thigh
My tongue in your mouth

I would lit the fire
On gloomy rains
While we make pancakes
And dance to your
Old favourite tunes

But people are people
And sometimes
We change our minds
On a cold day in November
You left
Banging the door
Broken window panes
A dying fire
We made quite a mess babe

And I confess baby
In my dreams
You're touching my hands
I hope
Wherever you are
The sun shines on your face
And something reminds you
Of my tear stained cheeks
Red hair in messy braids
And you wish you had stayed
I hope
You remember us
Under the Californian sky
On a Sunday noon

Find Me

Love, find me in the morning.

Find me in the morning,
Before the day has done its work on me . Before the sun is too bright for my shuttered eyes. While I'm unscathed, avid, spirited, in line with the stars . Find me raw, unfettered, warm, a petal, silver-soft . While I won't be breaking and burning and ending . And I hope you know that everytime I don't, I almost do . Find me enchanted and find me singing . I won't be out of line . Find me wondering about how streets look after it just rained . Find me marvelling about how time can heal almost everything . Find me naive . I'll be light . I'll be life . Find me coming home to myself . Find me open- souled , travelled , densed with hope . Find me .

I hate rain . I hate gloomy weather . I hate it when the sun's not out for many days . All I've done in the past few days is just watch the clouds pass by in the lower troposphere . It's sad and depressing .

How do you get over infatuations ? How do you overcome something for which your hormones are wholly responsible ? (Infatuations happen because of dopamine serotonin and oxytocin)
I get so infuriated over myself for being miserable. Constantly obsessing over someone who isn't even worth it. It's like I don't even control my thoughts. I'm just so attracted towards him that I can't help myself. He is in my subconscious mind. Do I tell him about it or not. Is it going to worsen things between us ? Will I be annoying ? Will I seem desperate ? How long will it take me to get over him.