Find Me

Love, find me in the morning.

Find me in the morning,
Before the day has done its work on me . Before the sun is too bright for my shuttered eyes. While I'm unscathed, avid, spirited, in line with the stars . Find me raw, unfettered, warm, a petal, silver-soft . While I won't be breaking and burning and ending . And I hope you know that everytime I don't, I almost do . Find me enchanted and find me singing . I won't be out of line . Find me wondering about how streets look after it just rained . Find me marvelling about how time can heal almost everything . Find me naive . I'll be light . I'll be life . Find me coming home to myself . Find me open- souled , travelled , densed with hope . Find me .

I hate rain . I hate gloomy weather . I hate it when the sun's not out for many days . All I've done in the past few days is just watch the clouds pass by in the lower troposphere . It's sad and depressing .

How do you get over infatuations ? How do you overcome something for which your hormones are wholly responsible ? (Infatuations happen because of dopamine serotonin and oxytocin)
I get so infuriated over myself for being miserable. Constantly obsessing over someone who isn't even worth it. It's like I don't even control my thoughts. I'm just so attracted towards him that I can't help myself. He is in my subconscious mind. Do I tell him about it or not. Is it going to worsen things between us ? Will I be annoying ? Will I seem desperate ? How long will it take me to get over him.